Day 230 — Another Tragedy

Saving My American DreamThe holiday cheer in our house feels like it’s been sucked up by a vacuum.

Last week, we bought a tree, and I got my two children a few small presents. What they really want for Christmas is an Xbox 360 Elite, and they’ve saved up their own money to buy one.

That’s the good news, as twisted as it seems. Your kids buying their own Christmas presents.

The bad news: My ex husband, whom I live with, abruptly lost his contract job this week, a job that had been paying the mortgage and all of the other bills excepts my son’s school tuition. I have been paying for that with my contract job, which expires at the end of this month.

My younger son is also experiencing mental health problems. He wakes up crying and doesn’t want to go to school. He says, “It feels like a sad house.”

I prefer not to write about my children in any great detail because it’s too personal.

We are trying to hold it together like so many other families who have lost their means of income and don’t qualify for a mortgage workout under President Obama’s plan to save homeowner’s from losing their American Dream.

I am still in the phase of processing my ex’s bad news, and we don’t know what we’re going to do.

He thought his contract job would lead to a full-time job. His confidence led him to buy a used car, which he financed. Of course, the car dealership won’t take it back after less than seven days of owning it. It told him to sell it to pay off the loan. Thanks.

We feel that losing our house would be catastrophic for so many reasons, the most important one being the stability of our children’s mental health, which seems more fragile than a crystal goblet left outside to break on a windy day.

I’ll continue to shield my children for as along as possible and keep my fingers crossed that my ex will find something between now and the end of the year, even if it just temporary seasonal work.

Knowing that there are others like me out there offers some comfort that I’m not alone. But I know less than a handful of them. The rest are as faceless as numbers on a flashcard, much like the U.S. Bureau of Labor’s report on the rising ranks of the unemployed.

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2 Responses to “Day 230 — Another Tragedy”

  1. Tom Robinson says:

    Your report is poignant, especially in this season.

    As a writer, I appreciate its cogency, free of the maudlin and lachrymose.

    (And I appreciate the “whom,” a verbum non grata
    in many quarters these days.)

  2. Herb Durian says:

    Hi, first I want to say nice blog. I don’t always agree with your posts but it’s always a interesting read.
    Keep up the great posting.

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